終於要搬家。

因為重病的緣故，搬家一事耽擱了好一陣。就像身邊一個人說的，沒人知道我有多累。

再好的風景，看多了也會膩。於是靠在窗邊默默的睡。醒來的時候，身上蓋了一翻薄棉被，想必是誰。就像我的世界。不斷的，有人進入。不斷的，有人離開。於是看見的，看不見了。記住的，遺忘了。

走之前，翻看了很多從前的舊相片。並非電腦裏的，只是些網上可以找到的。那之前，我就知道，以後的某天我會去想念。

翻到最後，進入主人的blog，讀她用中英文寫的這些那些。雖然她是純亞系人，她的英文一直都很好。看到這篇，心情也不由得沮喪。

“There exists an evil side of me that expects the world to revolve only around her. This evil side seems so vicious and wants so much from everyone. It’s therefore overpowered and can nearly take over me. What can she do? She creates arguments with my honey all the time. She tries to make life difficult for both of us because she's jealous of me being myself. She's jealous of the fact that he loves me so much more and that we are always happy together. Several times in a week I'm controlled by her. When I'm under control, she uses my body to shout, cry, and kick and to do whatever to make my honey stressed and depressed. Sometimes she makes him cry too. She has this habit that whenever she gets mad or moody, she talks bullshit to no end. She keeps talking, talking and talking until he can't take it anymore. The argument usually ends when he forces her to look at him in the eye. This is when I can finallye out and take control. Yes, you can tell this is her weakness. Don't ever get moody or upset, otherwise she'll manage to defeat me and the only way to defeat her is to make her feel loved. She can't bear it at all. She's used to the dark side. Love is the only solution.”

那love是狼。他們雖然相知相識還不到一年，卻轟轟烈烈陷入了愛情深淵。

那evil side的她，是我要用一生去挽救的靈魂。也只有我，才能平靜她。

我是一個從小被她收養的孩子，這輩子，離不開她。

總是沒有一個完整開始完整結束的故事，這讓我特不明白。我在等待，等待片刻的甜蜜。我說的，故事遠沒有結束遠沒有開始。遠沒有答案，有的只是經歷的回憶和寫時的感悟。

這幾天翻過很多從前的東西，包括一些信件，字還有聲音。很多已經找不到。十年後歸還的哨子粘著黃色便箋。到底有多少約定能夠兌現。十年後，我們都老了。丟失起飛的心願。

最後，去看了素不相識的人們的日記。輕描淡寫，一目十行。

手心一直握住的一把鑰匙。

決定寄去一個遙遠的地方。

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—藏

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